Pivotal Moments

We all have moments that change everything. What's yours?

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(38) Margaret, October 11, 2011 11:42 AM

My Pivotal Moment

My pivotal moment is when I realized I was a sinner before a Holy G-d.

Anonymous, February 15, 2012 1:43 AM

Very Interesting

This was a great video and it really made me think

(37) Willy, August 10, 2011 6:21 PM

moment

I have an story to tell, and I hope u will read it. I am an christian. I went to an catholic school from grades 1-8. One year we studied ww2.When we hit on the holocaust all was said was that 6 million Jews were killed.There was something to this I had to know. so I asked the nun why. All she said was that it was punishment for them killing the Christ. I knew right then that she was wrong. So after school I went to see Grandpa. I told him what the nun said and asked him if he could tell me about it.He said that a lot of bad things happened. I knew right then that there was something he wasn't telling me. Later on that night I told mom the whole thing. I told her that I knew the teacher was wrong and that grandpa wasn't telling me something. When she asked how I said I can feel it. She said that grandpa's family came from Germany and he didn't liked what they had done. Like with grandpa I knew she was leaving something out. Years later in 1976 I decided to do some genealogy. The first person was to be grandpa. My dad died in71 and grandpa in 74 so I went to my Aunt Dorothy. I told her why I was there and she invited me in. She asked me a couple of times if I was sure I wanted to do this . When I said yes she told me to have an seat. Then she told me that grandpa was Jewish. I knew right then why grandpa and mom gave me the answers they did. Grandpa was everything to me, but when I found this out I have yet found words to describe the joy I felt. I would give anything to do at least one passover with him and gone to services with him. to celebrate some of the holidays with him. A few times each year I research the holocaust to see what else I can learn. I mourn there loss and at the same time get angry over those that did it. I miss my grandpa but I missed the most is never being able to celebrated with him what was important to him for it would have been important to me as well. good day and thanks

(36) Anonymous, August 5, 2011 6:42 PM

Pivital Moment

I have been learning with you for about two years.As I listened you asked what was your pivital moment? When I was a teenager I was davening Shachrite at Camp Ramah out of doors with other young people my age and suddenly felt my very first real bond with HaShem. I suddenly really felt that he was listening. Later on I became pregnant and choose to wait until the end of my first trimester to tell my parents so that they could not force me to have an abortion. I misjudged them and they persuaded me to do what I had tried to avoid. To this day I mourn the loss of that unborn child on what would have been his birthday. A few years later, I married my bashert and I supported him through his graduate education & medical school, waiting all the while to have the four children that I hoped we would, with G-d's blessing, one day have. At last I became pregnant, but it was not ment to be. Through five more pregnancies I suffered four miscarriages All the while.I thought that I was being punished for the abortion. Yes you counted right ! We were blessed with a beautiful baby girl! We sent her to Jewish schools and we dreamed of the day when she would stand under the Chuppah but not yet . After years of searching without success she is 35 years old and is a Traditional single attorney. She has decided not to wait any longer to meet her bashert but to have IUI now. We somehow believe that HaShaem may be giving me a second chance through my daughter. We still pray that she will stand under the Chuppah, but we now hope that she will be blessed with a child as she continues her search so that Klal Yisrael will be increased through her. I hope she will find a supportive community in which to raise her child to be. It seems HaShem plans his own way. That is our gamechanger. Thank you for being my friend Lori.

(35) lilian uziel, July 25, 2011 9:36 PM

this is my moment

today i had a very difficult day after several why not a month were i had a real problem with one of my sons who got married to a non jewish girl which it took to long to talwith him but he did not hear his friends and i told him dont stay with her but he decided so and they had a girl out of marriage after a year they just got married. she tried to be nice to me at the begining but since she got pregnant everything changed the invitation was for 28 people and he did not invite his older brother because the talk betewen them i asked him pleasse invite him i told her to invite him she didnt. the invitation said spor dress jean and blouse so i dicided to put and dress in ivory color she never told how she was going to dress when i got there she was in a white nupcial gown and she was going to kill me when she saw me. the worst part is that i have another granddaughter she older they did not invite her but my son put her as a witness of the marriage.she doesnt like(the spouse) my grand daughter when she started to see us she was very nice to her since she got pregnant everything changed she hated her.the thing is that she wrote me an email a month a go telling me so many bad things and words that drepressed me because she said also that i cant go to her house, if you read you cant beleive it. but why is my moment because today a cutmer that came told me stop crying and think on you on what you are and what did for you family time will get better moments but now stop and think that first you have to know what you want for your life and i open the computer and hear you lori and this is my moment to go on and stop crying and things will be better. thank you lilian uziel mexico city

(34) Chana Leah, July 25, 2011 9:19 PM

Choosing to marry a Jewish man

In college I dated a fine young man who was not Jewish. Our relationship grew over time and we began discussing marriage and children. Although I was not brought up in a religious home, I felt culturally Jewish. As my boyfriend expressed his desire to have any future children baptized "just in case" (in his mind he was being protective) I recognized that I was uncomfortable with the idea. I broke up with the young man and vowed to learn more about what being Jewish means and to search for a Jewish man to marry (and I did).

(33) Miriam, July 25, 2011 1:28 AM

My day with G-d!

I grew up in a religious family and community but as a truth seeker, I was on a quest from a very young age to find my own personal connection to yiddishkeit and to my Creator. I used to ask questions that would baffle my teachers- and that was in elementary school! A very special high school teacher of mine once challenged the class to spend the remainder of the day with these three concepts at the forefront of our minds, without distraction: 1.Hashem created the world 2.Hashem is in control of and is supervising every single occurance 3.I will have to answer to Him for all of my actions here in His world. I was the only one in the class that really took it seriously and the only one to experience firsthand what absolute truth means. That day sticks in my mind as one of pure clarity, serenity and meaning. There were battles that day as any other- but I responded with alacrity and the inner confidence that comes from doing what your soul knows is right. Though my ideal is to integrate this awareness into my minute-to-minute conciousness to the same extent I was able to that day back in high school, and it is a life time journey, that experience opened whole new vistas to me. It taught me that strengthening G-dliness weakens other forces; that there is only so much room in our conciousness and if we fill it to the brim with Truth we create a reality where life can flow in harmony-not neccessarily without pain- but without the confusion we've come to settle for. I dedicate my life to internalizing Hashem's presence, and as I work towards that goal I conjure up those moments of heady exileration, of having found the answer, of coming home, and I'm inspired to delve ever deeper, to reach ever higher.

(32) Gershon, July 22, 2011 10:52 AM

Rabbi Meir Kahane

As a young college student in N.J. I went to hear Rabbi Meir Kahane. I was brought up secular and remember saying to myself "who is this militant guy who calls himself a rabbi?" (Not realizing then that this was my first encounter with a religious rabbi.) This moment changed my life. I decided to become observent and to move to Israel upon receiving my degree. Last year at my son's wedding in Jerusalem, I met Rabbi Kahane's widow. She had been invited by the father of my son's bride. He had told her that; " because of your husband (Rabbi Kahane) my daughter married such a talmid hacham --- a torah scholar."

(31) Laura, July 21, 2011 5:27 PM

JWRP

Although I have had many pivotal moments, the one that was most recent occurred on my trip to Israel with JWRP. The first time I went to the wall, I thanked Hashem for all of his gifts but I asked nothing for myself. The next day, I went back to the wall and asked Him to help me with something that had been bothering me my entire life. Not only did He answer that day, He answered two days later, and continued to answer me when I returned home. What I realized in these moments, is that there is a G-D and He answers. Sometimes it is immediate and sometimes He asks us to be patient and still other times, He doesn't always give us what we asked for but what we need. All of these are answers that allows us to be the best person we can be so that we can give the best of ourselves to others.

(30) Shofargirl, July 21, 2011 12:18 PM

Blessing!

Lori, May HaShem bless you for your walk with HIM! I also started believing in 1983. Best decision in my life. I live on G-D's word. I love Ha Shem with all my heart and all that HE says I keep precious. Hi is my ALL in ALL! Amen.

(29) Anonymous, July 21, 2011 5:03 AM

FIred from job the day after accepting a new one elsewhere.

When I was single I was employed in a position which had me traveling all over the USA, and working lots of uncompensated overtime. I had initially enjoyed it, but a new supervisor was brought aboard and the tensions began to develop. As my situation deteriorated, I realized that I hated the job and had no future there. The next week my supervisor imposed some unachievable demands upon me (just as he had done with my senior colleague). I went traveling the next week, but before I left I got a telephone call from the personnel office of a U.S. government agency. I arranged an interview for the coming Wednesday, which was supposed to be my last day away. I flew home Wednesday morning (instead of staying the whole day), went directly from the airport to the interview, and was offered the position less than 5 minutes into the interview. I told them that I would have to think about it, but would give them a response by close of business on Friday. The next day, Thursday, I went back to the home office, and was immediately called into my boss's office and was terminated. When I went to clean out my desk, I called the government agency and accepted the position, and started with the government the next week. I recognized that a Higher Power was at work here. And I remembered my conversation 6 years earlier with Rabbi Meir Schuster at the Kotel, who told me he believed that one day I would become religiously observant. While it would be a few years before I would actually start to keep Shabbat and the mitzvoth, I knew at that moment that HaShem was sending me a message, and setting me up in a position where I could begin to move towards observance. Even though the result would be delayed a few years, I knew then that it was a pivotal moment in my life. And by the time I left the government, I was married, had a child, and a frum household.

(28) Cathy, July 20, 2011 6:42 PM

My AHA Moment

I guess the turning point in my life was when I misscarried for the third time. At that point I realized that I would not be giving birth in my life, nor would I be marrying in the future to create a family, that if I did, it would be for companionship and security only. My AHA moment was not a pretty one and at that point I really stopped being decisive about my destiny. I just let G-d make all the choices for me now what becomes of me. I can't say that I am happier because of it, but I am alot more at peace with myself and G-d.

(27) Yisroel Pollack, July 20, 2011 2:32 PM

That Pivotal Moment

I was about to start high school. I had been attending a yeshiva elementary school from the very beginning. But I hadn’t developed much of a taste for learning Gemara. One day, I ventured into a local yeshiva beis medrash where men, of various ages, were learning Gemara with chavrusos (study partners). I was somewhat taken aback, as I had not previously had a firsthand look at intense Torah study in action. While looking, I caught notice of someone I knew from the neighborhood; and he saw me too. He made his way over to where I was standing. He pointed to several of the people who were engrossed in learning atop their Gemaras. He told me how they had been maintaining rigorous learning schedules for quite a number of years. Some of them had no other DAY JOBS and simply stuck to learning as a day-long, life-long occupation. But others had jobs and/or professions that they would engage in for the bulk of the day. But when the anticipated hour finally arrived, they would bolt out of their offices, labs, or what have you with fierce determination and head straight for the beis hamedrash in which he and I were presently standing and talking. They would spend the next few hours in uninterrupted, rigorous learning. They did this day-in-and-day-out over a span of quite of few years. And in fact, a number of them had already grown into accomplished talmidei chachamim (Torah scholars) and were recognized and sought out as authorities in Talmud and halacha. Listening to him, I was truly overwhelmed. I was overcome with ambition and formed an urge to dedicate myself to serious learning and strive to attain considerable heights in Torah knowledge and understanding. That was the moment when I resolved to pursue my high school studies within the confines of a reputable yeshiva, where I could immerse myself in Gemara learning in a very serious way.

(26) Chana, July 20, 2011 9:11 AM

Rediscovering Hashem

I was born an FFB - Frum from birth - but had rebelled in so many ways. I finally married and had children, living in Florida far from my place of birth. I was religiousish, I kept the mitzvot but just to get it done. One Friday night after lighting candles I walked alone to the small stream near my home to look at the beautiful birds who had come to this area for the winter. Sitting on a bench looking at these incredible birds, the ibis standing on one leg, the spoonbills scooping up the water and the ducks playing, calmed me down. Watching these birds and feeling Shabbat come over me like a comforting friend opened my heart to Hashem and his glory. I cried for the hour I sat there knowing that Hashem was with me in all things. Sadly my marriage didn't survive but my emunah did. After many internal changes (and external I have B"H remarried) I can happily say that I am now someone that no one from that time, neither myself or others would ever recognize. I am a true balat teshuva.

(25) Julie Scholl (Helfand), July 20, 2011 6:44 AM

I was your madrichah on that program!! You are still amazing

Hi Lori! I love your videos and hearing your take on Jewish life and values!! You are still the English/ philosopher student of life and a very articulate one as well!! I worked with Bracha (Coopersmith) and Rebcca (Shore) on that first Jerusalem Fellowship program when we were all "stranded" in Telstone. Was it the Israelight program or the Discovery program that was your "aha moment"? Are you in touch with the other girls that also stayed for seminary after the initial 6 week program (Rebecca from Yale I think) and you and who else?? I remember when I saw you speak at a seuda shlishe in Manhattan a few years back, You and I locked eyes and "remembered "each other from Jerusalem. You also had 1or 2 kids with you I think.... You inspire me and I am so in awe of your many talents and contributions you have made to Klal Yisroel!! May you be blessed with continued good health and strength and wisdom to do the holy work that you are doing together with your husband and family!! May we all share in nachas and simchos!! Love and best wishes~Julie Scholl from L.A.

(24) Carolyn, July 20, 2011 6:36 AM

Hailey

Giving birth to my beautiful baby girl, and finally holding her in my arms for the first time. Each time she smiles it fills my life with light and my heart with joy, and I am reminded that there truly are miracles.

(23) Welton, July 20, 2011 6:14 AM

My Pivitol moment

My pivitol moment came when I realized I would never be number one in anyone's life, not my wife's, not my daughters, not even my mother's; however, those relationships, even after 28 years of marriage and 55 years of life, the only relstionship that truly matters is my relationship with Hashem!

(22) Jack Leder, July 20, 2011 2:16 AM

Pivotal moment

The 1967 War and the re-confirmation of the centrality of Israel to Jewish life and continuity, where-ever it be .

(21) Tzofia L., July 20, 2011 1:28 AM

The birth of my son

I lived a very foolish life that I regret but through that I can see the contrast of spiritual poverty and God powerful and able to make beauty out of ashes. I had a child out of wedlock and I decided to raise him by myself. That's when I realize I needed real wisdom... God's wisdom but also His love to be able to teach it to my son...that's when the journey started, seeking God and loving Him with my all...including the child I have. My son is growing knowing that we serve a loving God, and that HE hears the brokenhearted and delivers them from evil.

(20) Anonymous, July 20, 2011 1:00 AM

I recently had a telephone conversation with a pianist and teacher who truly understands my passion for playing the piano. When I hung up the phone, I was shaking. I truly believe that the Almighty sent her to me., and that she and I will work together.

(19) al, July 19, 2011 10:04 PM

The Talmud says a man's soulmate is chosen for him at birth. My soulmate was the only girl I ever dated. Pivotal moment or just coincidence?

(18) Anonymous, July 19, 2011 5:51 PM

my daughter's disability

The realization, about two months ago, that managing my beautiful 7 year old daughter is actually becoming inceasingly more difficult. My hasband and I always asumed that as she gets older and becomes more independent (walked at 4 years and spoke at 6) it will be easier to look after her, however, it has 'hit' us that that is not going to be the case. We have decided that we must try not to worry about the future and just enjoy the small, but many, pleasures that she gives us and from those pleasures - charge the batteries for the more challenging parts of bringing up a chile with CP.

Moshe, July 19, 2011 11:20 PM

There is real hope for your child!

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(17) Anonymous, July 19, 2011 4:35 PM

when I got lost

I was born into a secular/inter-married family. But, in my teens I found my way to yiddishkeit and was blessed with the privilege of learning and then working in Israel. Unfortunately, even after many years of trying I couldn’t find my place. My teachers and Rabbi tried to help me, creating opportunities for me, but still I didn’t fit in. My pivotal moment was when I got on the plane and flew away from Israel, and then from yiddishkeit.

Anonymous, July 19, 2011 6:34 PM

It's never too late

How sad to feel compelled to give up something you treasured! You have not lost each Mitzva you've done, and you always have the opportunity to do more. Yiddishkeit is not all or nothing!

Anonymous, July 26, 2011 9:02 PM

Thank you!

Anonymous, July 19, 2011 7:47 PM

ongoing pivital moments

Just by being on Aish ha Torah & listening to Lori's messages, you are not gone from yiddishkeit. May Hashem bless & strengthen you to return to your pintel yid burning bright from within in life's ongoing pivotal moments. We have ongoing opportunities for pivital moments that go up & down as long as we are alive. The woman Lori spoke of chose to savor the moment before meeting her son. Those moments are the ongoing choices we make. Hatzlacha!

Anonymous, July 26, 2011 9:03 PM

Thank you as well.

(16) sheryl schwartz, July 19, 2011 4:11 PM

I was with Lori at that moment!

Lori-I was on the fellowships with you at that moment! While that particular moment did not reach me the way it reached you since i did not know hebrew so it did not mean alot to me...the summer with Aish in Israel was definetely the "moment" for me. Love, Sheryl

(15) Anonymous, July 19, 2011 2:53 PM

Yesterday I got a life changing diagnosis

This is my moment. I will finish writing my poetry book and my memoir. I will try to cherish each day no matter what.

(14) Karen, July 19, 2011 1:20 PM

Pivotal moment

When my grandchild was placed in my arms at 2 weeks old. I fell in love with her and have been ever since. She is now a mother herself.

ruth housman, July 19, 2011 3:25 PM

Pivotal Moments

It could be, for many of us, that being MOMs are part of that pivotal MOMent. I do deeply remember that kick inside me, and the wonder of it, the sheer, sheer wonder of it. The beginning of the unfolding of a true miracle, in real time. For me, there have been many pivotal moments, and the one, seems to augment, the other. I feel that many have mentored me, with comments, that did deeply change something inside, that made me think, and brought me one step higher, in terms of a burgeoning consciousness of the all visible presence of what is DIVINE in my life. We go places, and we don't necessarily expect, in what is mundane, that something transcendent will happen, and going places, itself has double meaning. Here is one that is curious. A rabbi said to people assembled, you must pray aloud. I was really resistant to this notion. What about those who cannot form words, who are deaf? I did not agree. But what this did for me, these very uncomfortable words, was open a door, a gate within me, and for me, it's been a mind expanding experience, to hear words, to deconstruct them, and he threw me a key, he really did, that has deeply informed the rest of my life. Another rabbi said, "Get used to it. Life is deeply, on all levels, about paradox." I thought about this, and this truth embedded within, and has deeply informed my writings. There is so much, much more. When we all think back, I believe we see these glowing embers that did transport us, to new and important places that have deep significance. The Sign Posts are there for us all! A Divine Story, for every single one of us!

(13) Anonymous, July 19, 2011 1:17 PM

My moment--there IYH will be more

I am a BT. After I got married, I wanted to have children right away. I BH became pregnant right away, but miscarried 6 weeks later and was shocked--I'd never had gynecological issues and no one in my family ever knowingly miscarried. I was crushed and felt so alone and was questioning my faith in Hashem. I had to go through a whole slew of tests to find out why I miscarried and my doctor didn't want me to try for a baby again until the tests were done. Before I miscarried, my husband encouraged me to go with him to do shiloach hakan mitzvah in Brooklyn. I didn't think much of it, but I remember we took down two eggs, and the man told us he'd have them embalmed and put in a beautiful plastic case for display. Months later, after all the tests were finished, my doctor put me on fertility drugs,whch I didn't think were necessary, but we did anyway. BH" I became pregnant right away. 6 weeks into the pregnancy, I found out I was carrying twins! I remembered the two eggs from the shiloach hakan, and just felt a smile form in my soul. The real moment happened though when I went to see a hematological specialist,at my OBGYN's insistence.This man dealt with high risk pregnancies and peope who had serious problems getting and maintaining pregnancies.He looked at me, smiled when I told him I was already pregnant and said "You're not one of my patients! I don't need you here! You got pregnant on your own!" Then I told him I was experiencing incredible nausea and he smiled and said "We like nausea! Nausea means a healthy baby!" That was my moment--I felt faith again, Hashem was with me, there wasn;t anything wrong with me, and this pregnancy was going to be ok. I had to go through the whole nisayon for whatever reason and go through the motions, but in the end, it's all ok--and it was! Eight months later, I BH" gave birth to a healthy boy and girl, weighing a little over 5 lbs each. Now they;re almost 4, and I can't wait to show them the shiloach hakan eggs!

(12) Anonymous, July 19, 2011 1:05 PM

one?

not sure there is just "one moment"...my life is a series of never ending lessons and moments..baruch hashesm! each day holds the promise of more to realize and understand....

(11) Yocheved Hande, July 19, 2011 12:53 PM

I could actually pray to God and He was really listening!

I began a journey in my mid twenties to become healthier so that I could have healthy children. I was living in NYC with my husband, and so i started jogging in Central Park, learning and doing Yoga, and meditating. I used the word chai to meditate on. From that small openning, Hashem came through and spoke to me saying, that I must start studying Torah and begin to eat Kosher. I listened... I then had a yearning to go to Israel with my husband, and I listened... An amazing 3 weeks!! Now I yearned for a teacher. When I moved to Roslyn, Long Island I became part of a Jewish Meditation Group sanctioned by The Rebbe. Wow, we have Jewish Meditation, and other like minded jews... amazing. My pivitol moment came after a talk the Rabbi gave that ran the group that night. He told us that we could pray for what we want. I had never learned how to pray... You mean, I can actually pray to God ? I, Yocheved, could actually talk to God. I listened... I went immediately and went up to my quiet room and went to the bookshelf and reached for a bible (Tanach) that I had never opened, i was studying from the Hertz Chumash. I sat down and prayed to Hashem to please gift me with a second child. I had a "miss" and wasn't able to get pregnant for several years. I then said to Hashem silently, I will open this book and what ever i read will be your personal message to me. I opened to the story of Chana in the book of Samuel and read every word. I still have the chills as i write this to you! I told Hashem that if he gifts me with a child, i will also dedicate her to "You" and do what ever it takes. She is my Perel, a nurse who is working at Hasc this summer, the handicapped camp for challenged children. I am still listening!! That was truly my pivotal moment. Thanks for asking...

(10) aaron, July 18, 2011 11:35 PM

I couldn't stop crying

It was in LA were a lived 20 yrs ago On my way to work I used to drive by a place were there was a sign on top of a 2 stories bldg. "JEWISH LEARNING EXPERIENCE" I was in my late 30's single and secular. I was brought up in a "traditional" Jewish family :matzah in Pesach,fasting in Y.K as time goes by not even that. One evening returning from a week long Acapulco vacation I decided to see what's all about that Jewish experience. So I went in,Nobody was at the reception desk so I decided to explore the place-the classrooms were dark & empty but then I opened a door and there it was: a shul full of chassidic men in their robes praying. Swiftly I closed the door and run away. A rabbi followed me to the street & asked to see if he could be of any help. I said I just wanted to find out about the courses I explained I'm Jewish and...he kindly interrupted me and explained that that night "we" were celebrating a holyday( it was Simcha Torah) if I'd liked to join them Hesitangtly I accepted . He asked me if I knew how to pray with a siddur. I felt challenged and said of course I know. That probably was a surprise for him-I looked so out of place wearing light trousers linen short sleeves white shirt and a deep tan from the Mexican beach but he seemed to not care about my apparence. He handled a siddur -Maariv was going to start-and started to read with some difficulty . When the time to recite the Shma I lift my hand and covered my eyes and said SHEMA ISRAEL ...but couldn't continue and started to cry that was my MOMENT. I felt I was finally coming back -it was a strong feeeling of LOVE - Hashem was waiting for my all those years. I hardly composed myself and let my feelings flowed and He helped me. I said the Shma and the amidah almost flawlessly . After that MOMENT my life changed . Baruch Hashem now I'm married to a wonderful eshes chail and my children learn in yeshiva and I myself learn a few hours a day. BARUCH HASHEM

(9) Margie Frankel, July 18, 2011 8:25 PM

My Special Moment

My special moment in life is almost like yours. My husband and I joined the First AISH Mission to Israel. in 2010. the first day we were welcomed by the staff, and was told that the first thing they want us to do is visit is the KOTEL. Before that day, I have only read and saw it in pictures and books. Before we went there, the Rabbi told us to prepare ourselves not only for prayers, but to stand in the place closest to G-D. I did not fully understand what it meant. But when I got there, I slowly walked my way through the crowd, reach my hand out to touch the wall and to pray. To my surprise I felt a very strong energy , electrifying, as if a volt of gentle lightning run through my nerves, and I felt so light, I thought I was going to pass out. I held on to the wall, and the tears started flowing, a very strong emotion flooded my whole being. I felt G-D and I felt HIM took all my worries , all my hurt feelings, my bad sentiments. I almost can't believe it myself, but it was such a wonderful feeling that I haven't told anyone for the fear that they might think I'm just making up a story. The whole time we were in Jerusalem, every step I took on the streets made me feel that I belong there. It is only later that I told my husband everything. My husband is Jewish, and I am not. He did not asked me to convert, because he said it has to come from me. Now I know where I belong. I belong to G-D and is preparing myself to convert. The Rabbi told me it is a long and tedious process, and I know it is, but I will take it one step at a time. Right now, I'm learning a lot about Judaism, and I'm learning Hebrew, this way I can understand the Torah and its teachings from the heart. A the Kotel is my most precious moment, the moment when I feel I came "Face to face with H-shem, and from then on,trusted in HIM and had given my life for HIS glory, and be with HIM...בעזרת השם.

(8) anonymous, July 18, 2011 7:52 PM

I believe that a pivotal moment can be as mundane as meeting a spouse. It can also be one associated with something seen as negative when looked at in retrospect.

(7) Eric Jacobson, July 18, 2011 5:54 PM

Giving in...

One night, alone in the room I was staying, far from home, weighing only 43kg and on the verge of collapsing into insanity forever after a long time on drugs, I gave in. I crawled out of bed and onto the floor with my face down and said to the GOD of Israel: "GOD of Israel, I'm sorry for my rebellion. I'm sorry. Please help me. You are my only hope, or I'm sure I will die or go insane forever. I want to learn Your ways and do them." That night I slept for the first time in ages. That was how He answered me- with rest. So I began studying His Word. Somehow, a month or so later, I stumbled across Aish.com and I've never let go of what all of you, through GOD, give me. (that, and hard work and prayer) My next moment is in two parts. 4 years later, my beautiful daughter Éirinn was born to me. The first words she heard was Shema. 1 year, 3 months later, my beautiful daughter Éowyn was born to me. The first words she heard was Shema. Because it is the most important welcoming gift I could give them. My third moment happened in April of this year at breakfast. My two little girls suddenly for the first time sang Shema together while my jaw hit the floor and my heart lept to Heaven for joy. (they now live with my ex-wife).

(6) Sarah Dinah, July 18, 2011 4:39 AM

A moment with my mother

My mother and I had always had a strained relationship, and I felt rejected and misunderstood by her. In fact, I didn't think I was like her in the least. About ten years ago, she was stricken with a fatal disease, and I made several trips to visit her over the three years during which she was dying. And yet, I withheld myself from her. I talked with her, sure, but not like a daughter talks to her mother. One day, she put her hand out to stroke my head, and I realized that while she was reaching out to me, in the way I most loved, physical affection, I was withholding the very same thing from her, the thing she most wanted and needed from me. Suddenly, I started to see myself in her, I started to see her in me. A wave of love and connection washed over me, and I thought: I love this woman, and she is going to die. I was overwhelmed with feelings of loss, and after that, I spent as much time with her as I could. I hugged her. I stroked her hair. I sat next to her on her hospital bed. I shared stories with her. I spoke with her as honestly as i could about what she was experiencing. I played music for her. I told her I loved her. I wrote to her and sent pictures of my life. I saw the hauntedness in her eyes - she was unable to speak the last several months of her life - and I knew that there was so much she wanted to say to me, so much she wanted to tell me, and I realized that I had not connected with her before that time, given her a chance to talk to me too. I did my best to repair our relationship, as she did, and I had some measure of peace when she died. I could no longer see her, see myself, see our relationship, in the same way. I was able to see her as one of G-d's children, not "just" my mother.

(5) gitti, July 18, 2011 3:40 AM

The moment in my life

My moment was when a dr. sat down with me in a room specially decorated to be "calming" and explained that the mammogram I had to come back for indeed did show something suspicious, and I would have to undergo an invasive procedure to learn more. Her tone was too calm her words too kind - I knew she thought it would be a bad outcome. When I walked out of the building, the whole word was different than when I had entered just an hour earlier. I sat in my car and wept - for me, for my husband, for my parents, and especially for all my precious children. On that day, I began to see my children differently. And I began to have a relationship w/Hashem that was deeper than before, way deeper. I truly felt Him so close to me during the frightening, uncertain period of time that followed until I got a clean bill of health - BH! I am immensely grateful that I am healthy (may we all remain so!) but I am also grateful for the clarity and depth in my relationship with Hashem that I was granted at that time. I hope to always be able to hold on to that closeness with HIM, from good health and happiness.

(4) Anonymous, July 17, 2011 6:13 PM

covering my hair

i realized that it was wrong for me to go with out my hair being covered the day i ran into a student of mine and had to run away because I was so ashamed of being seen that way!

(3) Sandra, July 17, 2011 4:06 PM

I'm patiently waiting for mine. (or has it already happened?)

My Blessed Grandmother passed away recently. Even in the throws of dementia she prayed 3 times a day and always lit candles. After lighting candles, she said a prayer in Yiddish that she never taught me; my Mother and I had our own in English. It wasn’t till after she died that I found out she was saying tkhines. Remembering only a few words,I posted them on Facebook. A close friend, who understood Yiddish, gave us a list of books in hopes of finding this precious prayer. I found one of them in a small bookstore that was closing its doors. I have fallen asleep with it on my chest night after night. I want to find this prayer and teach it to my daughter. I want to share it with my friends in hopes that they will share it with theirs. So the question is have I had my moment? Was it when I decided I was worthy of a college education? Was it when I made my kitchen kosher? Was it when I walked out of the hospital? Was it the moment that I realized the value in such a tiny prayer? I’m hoping that someday, a group like JWRP will come to my small town as backwards as it is and guide us. I feel like I am on the brink of my moment.

Anonymous, July 17, 2011 6:51 PM

my grandmother a"h had alzheimers and she had a yiddish prayer as well

Dear Sandra, I wonder if the prayer is the same as my grandmother, may she rest in peace. I can relate to your story, as in my case, I was encouraged to learn the prayer through osmosis, but it doesn't mean I learned it well. I will try to write some of it here. If you visit the site again, please tell us if it's the same and where to find it. 'l'kavod gut, l'kavud un-sikibut, l'kavud a halikin shabbos, v zus haklez l'gbin, unidutz g'but l'been mizvot u 'hadlakas hanaros,u nich zakan l'kal taryag mitzvot l'kol yisroel amen'

(2) Heather, July 17, 2011 2:51 PM

JWRP.org changed my life.

The JWRP has changed my life and I thank you for it. My eyes are wide open to more and can't wait to go back to Israel again and again....

(1) ray, July 17, 2011 1:33 PM

My moment was when i was seeking the answer to man's nature, sin and GOD in the internet, and i found AISH.

Thank you Lori for all that you are doing.

Beth Horwitz, July 18, 2011 6:22 AM

When Hashem embraced my 3 children & I as my father in law was killed..holding my son's hand!

Thanks Lori for the amazing Journey I was on in July 2009. 1st (Denver) JWRP trip..... We have to live while we are living and wake up to life! Your plan has been wonderful. I will continually enroll MOT's into your projects..... xooxo, BH

 

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