click here to jump to start of article
  • Torah Reading: Naso
Join Our Newsletter

Get latest articles and videos with Jewish inspiration and insights​

Q&A for Teens: Resilience
Q&A for Teens

Q&A for Teens: Resilience

My scary question: Am I damaged beyond repair?


Dear Lauren,

I’ve read your articles, especially the one on emotional abuse, and I have a really scary question: is it possible that I am so damaged I’m beyond repair?

Lauren Roth's Answer

I have wonderful news for you: the fact that you are asking this question means the answer is “no.” The fact that you are asking this question means that somewhere inside you, you want to change. And if you want to change – if you have even an iota of a desire to change – then change is never beyond you. This is the question I’m asked the most by my clients. Many of them have had horrific experiences, or they’ve had experiences which to them were traumatic in one way or another, and their greatest concern is: “Can I be healed?” And just like the famous joke says, it only takes one therapist to change a light bulb – if the light bulb wants to change.

I’ve seen children of abusive parents become loving mothers and fathers. And I’ve seen extremely hurt spouses turn their marriages around for the better. It will probably take work, but if you’re willing to put in the effort to understand what was done to you, how it hurt you, why it was wrong, and to learn a better way, you can change the pattern. As I like to tell my clients: “You can be the one to stop the cycle from continuing. You can be the one to not transmit the poison to the next generation. The buck stops here – and you are the one who’s going to stop it.”

You can change, if you want it badly enough. But you can’t expect others to change.

Just remember, though, the Golden Rule of Psychotherapy. You can change, if you want it badly enough. But you can’t expect others to change. Because you are the one asking this question, my answer to you is “Yes, you can change, with work.” But if someone else isn’t asking the question, then they probably won’t be able to heal. And, true, someone with, for example, Antisocial Personality Disorder may never ask this question. Someone with ASPD doesn’t feel wrong when they knock over little old ladies and steal their purses. Once you feel remorse and want to heal, that’s your doorway to a whole new, beautiful vista.

A relevant example comes to mind. The Olympics represents the entire world coming together in peace and unity to participate together in exhibitions of human prowess. Okay, so you may prefer that the subject of the Olympics be exhibitions of human values, or exhibitions of human morality, but the bottom line is: it’s a peaceful coming together of representatives from the entire world. Certainly world peace has been broken many, many times. Certainly friendly interactions between representatives of different nations have failed millions of times throughout history. Yet, still, every two years, the representatives of different countries gather together “to heal a fractured world” (to quote a phrase from my favorite author, Sir Rabbi Jonathan Sacks).

I’ll do you one better, though. I will suggest to you that the very “disease” which damaged you is the germ which makes you stronger. Did you ever read the science fiction classic War of the Worlds, by H.G. Wells, in which Martians take over the world? (You might be more familiar with the 1938 radio adaptation of the book by Orson Welles, which resulted in widespread panic across the United States when listeners thought the fictional account was real!) I always think of the end of that book whenever I have a cold. Allow me to explain and give you a great deal of confidence.

The human immune system works in the following manner: any virus your body is exposed to, the immune system builds an immunity to that virus. Because there are trillions of different viruses and trillions of different versions of those viruses, we still get sick. But someone with a healthy immune system can never become sick from the same virus twice. Being exposed to a virus grants the body immunity to that virus forever.

When I have a cold, I am then immune to that virus forever. The ending of War of the Worlds is that the Martians who have taken over Earth all die from the common cold, because they never were exposed to our viruses – they never built up their immunity.

Your painful experiences are like viruses. And exposure to those viruses grants you everlasting immunity to them; if you work hard to recognize the lessons you’ve learned from your difficult experiences, and if you work hard to understand exactly what about those experiences hurt you, and how it hurt you, you’re well on your way to understanding how you don’t want to behave in your own life. You’ll be much less likely to repeat the same behaviors, because you have “psychological immunity” to them.

My clients are always terrified they’re going to repeat the horrific behaviors they’ve witnessed. I assure them that so long as they’re both aware and terrified of those behaviors and the effect those behaviors had on them, they are almost “immune” to perpetrating them on others. Sure, it takes hard work to stay aware, and even harder work to practice an alternative reaction, but the awareness – the desire to heal – is key.

Find someone whom you can trust and who will believe in you.

Resilience means staying healthy despite traumatic experiences. The studies on children and resilience show that children who have the following three things are most likely to be resilient: (1) an adult who loves them and believes them and believes in them; (2) good looks, and; (3) intelligence. I always thought that the reason why good looks and intelligence were factors in increased resilience is because that helps a child get an adult who loves them and believes them and believes in them. My advice to you is: find that adult for yourself. If it’s a parent, a teacher, a rabbi, a principal, an older sibling, a therapist, a friend or a neighbor – find someone (preferably an adult) whom you can trust and who will believe in you and love you back to health.

As Tisha B’av reminds us, broken things can always be rebuilt.

August 4, 2012

Submit a Question to Q&A for Teens (Click here)

Give Tzedakah! Help create inspiring
articles, videos and blogs featuring timeless Jewish wisdom.
The opinions expressed in the comment section are the personal views of the commenters. Comments are moderated, so please keep it civil.

Visitor Comments: 18

(11) chava, August 7, 2013 6:02 PM

In response to all those who commented about "beauty"

Have you ever noticed how sometimes you look at someone you don't know, and you think they're plain looking, or maybe even a bit on the negative side of beauty. But then, when you watch them interact with people, or even more so, when you get to know them and like them, they actually become physically beautiful or handsome in your eyes. "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder," but I'd venture to change that to say that beauty is in the mind and heart of the beholder.

(10) Raphaelle Do Lern Hwei, May 17, 2013 2:26 PM

A Gentle Reminder

The human soul, unlike an inanimate object can grow and revive itself, faster than most think possible. It depends on wjether the hurt person is open to the love and mercy of G-d.
the oft repeated saying goes that when in boiling water, one can be a carrot which becomes soft, an egg which becomes hardboiled or a teabag, which infuses into the surrounding water, changing it into tea.

(9) Rochel, December 12, 2012 3:04 PM

Raising Lakewood

Lauren , I love your articles but lately i feel like i need something more personal. I'm a mother of 2 kids ages 11&14, and lately I'm so desperate to join a weekly parenting group, things constantly come up (Baruch HaShem that's part of life) I'm always double guessing if I handled situations best possible. For example- I find my kids do almost nothing around the house for chores-do i ignore? Or implement something? I understand my 14 is developing her own identity , but does that mean I should ignore the constant criticism and name calling she offers freely to everyone in sight. And food, she drives me crazy to get her candy for studying, and that I don't have normal food because I won't make fast food suppers every Is this a phase she'll outgrow? Or do I need to address it?

(8) Anonymous, August 10, 2012 12:31 PM

Consider the source of the abuse.

Don't by into a lie that the abuser was right, or had a right to abuse you. If you were abused it means the abuser already had that within them to abuse.Maybe,they had poor anger control,they lacked empathy,Maybe,they had physical or emotional issues that either is out of their control(metabolic,structural,chemical,genetic)or they did not get help for past abuse issues they had,or a combination there of.Try to understand how these factors played a part in the abuse that was played out against you.

(7) Anonymous, August 8, 2012 5:16 PM

beauty and intelligence???

i loved this article as i felt it touched the core of what many children of abusive parents or situations may feel. this was very empowering indeed for that clientele. however, I agree with post #3 that i was shocked to read about beauty and intelligence as contributing factors to resilience. i would be interested in knowing know where this reseach is founded?

See All Comments

Submit Your Comment:

  • Display my name?

  • Your email address is kept private. Our editor needs it in case we have a question about your comment.

  • * required field 2000
Submit Comment