click here to jump to start of article
Join Our Newsletter

Get latest articles and videos with Jewish inspiration and insights​




Dating Advice #198 - Commitment Phobia?
Dating Advice 198

Dating Advice #198 - Commitment Phobia?

Two near-misses are pointing to a problem. What's at the root?

by

Dear Rosie & Sherry,

I have been dating seriously for about four years, and I am beginning to feel that I have serious issues with commitment.

I have broken off an "almost engagement" as well as an actual engagement. I am still reeling from my broken engagement, which took place only a few months ago. When my former fiance and I first started dating, I had a feeling early on that, "I could marry this guy." He took this as a cue to show his willingness to make a commitment. However, I began to feel uncomfortable, and I started finding faults in him.

Because of this, we took a small break, but then we got back together and decided to get engaged. However, I started getting scared again and I begged for time to think about it. I kept worrying, "Why don't I get excited when he is loving towards me? Why can't I reciprocate his love? That must be a bad sign." On the other hand, I thought, "He is such an amazing guy who would make a wonderful husband." I decided my negative feelings were just due to commitment phobia, and proceeded with the engagement.

After our engagement party, I experienced severe ups and downs, including panic attacks and nausea. From any perspective, I had self doubt. I kept thinking, "If I break up with him, I'll regret not having married him," and then, "If I marry him, I might totally regret it!"

My poor fiance had to put up with a rollercoaster ride, and we broke it off.

My poor fiance had to put up with a rollercoaster ride, and the end of the story is we broke it off.

There was a similar pattern with the guy to whom I almost became engaged. I had initial enthusiasm and then I saw faults and problems, especially once we started discussing engagement. I liked him but I kept putting it off until he gave me an ultimatum.

Right now, I feel stuck. Have I made a mistake and missed my soul mate? Or was I right? I'm worried that I'll have these issues with whichever guy I date, and that I'll never break out of this commitment rut. What do you recommend for me?

Beth

Dear Beth,

We believe that your difficulty is more than just a fear of commitment. It is intertwined with your not knowing what to look for in a future spouse, and how to pace yourself when building a relationship that can lead to an enduring marriage.

The pattern you have described is liking someone you date, thinking that this is enough able to build a life with him, and having second thoughts once it gets to the point of commitment. You don't trust your judgment and vacillate between certainty and doubt. One of the main reasons you feel this way is that you have skipped many important steps in the relationship-building process and moved toward commitment too soon.

Marriage involves more than simply liking each other and thinking the other person will be a good spouse. Two people must start with compatible goals and common values, and each should believe that the other has the important personal qualities they want their future spouse to possess. During their courtship, they have to develop respect and admiration for each other, as well as an emotional connection that we term "emotional intimacy," and they have to begin to care about each other. This emerges as the two spend time discussing many aspects about the past, present, and future, and sharing experiences together.

It seems to us that you didn't go through this process. Most people need to see each other in a variety of situations, and feel that they are developing respect, admiration, and feelings of affection for each other. The optimal way of doing this is to date twice a week, and to speak on the phone a few times in between dates. While there is no specific time frame that works for everyone, in our experience couples need to feel that emotional connection, affection, respect, and admiration before they discuss getting married.

You rushed into thinking about engagement far too soon.

With both of the men you describe, you seem to have rushed into thinking about engagement far too soon. It doesn't matter if you did so because you let your emotions "think" for you, or because you felt that you "should" agree to get married because he was a nice guy with all of the right qualities. The bottom line is that you got engaged, or came close to becoming engaged, even though you weren't really sure that this was the right person for you.

Because you were anxious about this, you began to focus on the flaws he had (and we all have them) as a way of "binding" your anxiety. You also began to doubt your feelings for him, feelings that never fully developed in the first place.

Had you paced your dating in a more optimal way, you could have been more certain about your feelings and you would have viewed his faults differently. In other words, you could have been able to see the bigger picture and could either have accepted his imperfections -- along with the qualities you respected, admired, and valued. Or, you could have decided that he was not right for you because all of the ingredients for a healthy relationship weren't present.

Beyond this, you may also have a genuine fear of commitment. The nausea and ambivalence you experienced are often felt by people who second-guess decisions that were made prematurely, but they are also felt by people who are afraid of commitment. The fact that you by-passed the early stages of development might be due to the fact that you are afraid to open up or reveal your inner self. Or, you may not trust your own sense of judgment about marriage, worry that something bad may happen, or fear making the next step because of an unresolved issue from your past. We don't know you well enough to say that any of these scenarios applies to you.

However, we can offer an idea that will help you gain some insight into whether your unproductive dating patterns are intertwined with a fear of commitment. Get a notebook and a pen, set aside some private time, and start to write. Do you have a clear idea of what you would like to do in your life, what you want out of life, and how you would like to get there? Write down your thoughts. Is there unsettled business you feel you need to take care of before you get married? Describe it, as well as your thoughts on why you have not yet addressed these issues, and what it will take for you to be able to do so.

Next, write down what makes you anxious or scared about becoming emotionally close with someone, deciding that he is "the one" for you, becoming engaged, getting married, and being married. Then, go over each item and think about how you can deal with that concern.

If you get stuck at any point in these exercises, or are not happy with your answers, then you may indeed have a problem with commitment. The best way to address such a fear is through short-term, goal-oriented therapy. If you prefer to try to address this issue without therapy, try Dr. Susan Jeffers' book, Feel the Fear and Do It Anyway.

All the best,

Rosie & Sherry

Published: January 28, 2006

Submit Your Dating Advice Question (Click here)


Give Tzedakah! Help Aish.com create inspiring
articles, videos and blogs featuring timeless Jewish wisdom.

Visitor Comments: 10

(10) Aviva, May 19, 2013 5:27 AM

How selfish!

This post made me so angry. This is exactly the kind of selfish attitude that a lot of young people today think they are entitled to have in terms of dating. It's all about me. "Did I miss my soulmate?". Yet this woman shows absolutely no remorse about the fact that she will have seriously hurt at least two men in her life, who now will carry this hurt into their future relationships. This I would say is the reason people today find it hard to get married. You can never trust who you are dating anymore because it has become totally acceptable to break off relationships on a whim and then even complain about how much YOU suffer because of your "issues". A person who doesn't know what they want should not be dating, period. At least this girl had the sense to write someone about it, however she should really have the maturity to realise that she did something very wrong and at least try to do some teshuva!

(9) Gemma, October 20, 2012 11:17 PM

Im so messed up i cant even get into a realtionship

I keep starting to date lovely guys who are sweet and perfect and then i always get to a point with in a few weeks where i freak or have a panic attack and get really depressed and break it off breaking their heart. I literally have no idea what's wrong with me because i got that feeling again about the guy im seeing. a few days ago i though everything was perfect and he was perfect and i was falling in love. Now the idea of being with him makes me feel ill. physically ill. what do i do????? i think i have really bad commitment phobia but its not even that its relationship phobia!!! x

(8) Sophia, September 1, 2012 9:21 AM

CLASSIC CASE OF COMMITMENT PHOBIA

Its classic commitment phobia. Period.

(7) Nichole, December 6, 2008 9:10 PM

I Can Relate!

I've been in exactly the same situation, and I would like to thank you, Rosie and Sherry, for your wonderful advice. After reading your article, I tried out the journaling exercise that you suggested. It brought out a lot of things that were going on, subconsciously, for years. I came to realize that I am unable to commit to my boyfriend because I have set myself up for failure for years. I haven't allowed anyone to truly get close to me since I lost my father at a young age. I've created a pattern in which I "choose" to fail. This way, failure is a success because I chose it as my goal. And success is also success. It's a strange realization to come to, but I think that it has truly changed my life. I feel empowered to take a chance and try to succeed at things. If I fail, it will only be a learning opportunity. To anyone who reads this, take a chance. Try to make things work with the person you love. Throw yourself into it and take a chance. Try. Succeed. Fail. It doesn't matter so much what the outcome is as it does to try wholeheartedly to find happiness and be true to yourself.

(6) Lynne, December 8, 2007 1:02 AM

I don't think this is all correct.

First of all they dated 4 years that IS enough time to get to know values and personalities, differences and commonalities. It also is enough time to check out respect for each other. What you did not tell her is that when you criticize someone and find fault you are essentially finding fault from within yourself. There is a self image factor that is deep within her and she is afraid of committing because all of herself will be exposed. I agree she should seek some counseling looking for a positive progressively improving so as to notice change with herself situation.If you can see change for the better within yourself in 6 months it is a good counselor. Many counselors out there do not acheive this with their patients, and it is disconcerting and expensive. Talking also before the breakup or even now with someone and your ex-fiance could still save the engagement. Good luck

See All Comments

Submit Your Comment:

  • Display my name?

  • Your email address is kept private. Our editor needs it in case we have a question about your comment.


  • * required field 2000
Submit Comment
stub