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You First

Reckoning with forces that split a family apart.

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Gail, the social worker, came to Chaim’s bedside. “You’ll be going home in three days, Mr. K. Any ideas how you’ll manage?”

“Oh, I’ll be alright,” said the octogenarian with a small smile. “I’ve always been independent.”

“Yes, but now you’re after an operation. You’ve broken your hip and can’t walk on your own,” Gail said. “Do I understand that you live alone on the third floor?”

The old man answered slowly. “My wife died more than five years ago.”

“Do you have any children?”

“My son died as a small child many years ago.”

“Yes?” the social worker probed.

The answer was slow in coming. “I have a daughter… but I haven’t had anything to do with her for a decade.”

“Why is that?” she delicately asked.

“It’s a long story, I’d rather not talk about it,” Chaim said, no longer smiling.

But Gail wasn’t giving up. She needed to find a solution. “Well maybe we can change that. You’re going to need help, and the most natural place to look is within the family.”

“Ha!” Chaim blurted out harshly. “There won’t be any help coming from that side.”

“Tell me about the break. What caused it?”

“I gave her everything! An education, a wedding. I even helped them buy an apartment -- but what’s the use of talking. That all happened a long time ago and to make a long story short I’ve had nothing to do with Ilana and her husband in ten… no, 12 years.”

“What if I call her,” Gail suggested.

“Do what you want, but I’m not taking any part in that,” the old man said bitterly, turning to the wall and refusing to talk anymore.

Stubborn

Gail left and did some detective work. She found the name and phone number of her patient’s daughter and set up a meeting with her at her home. Ilana was a pleasant, middle aged woman who worked as a lab technician and had three teenaged children. She seemed genuinely concerned when she learned that her father had broken his hip and was having a difficult recovery.

“I don’t think there’s anything I can do,” said Ilana quietly. “We haven’t been in touch for 12 years or more. At first I tried to make peace with my father, but he’s such a stubborn old character. I’m sorry that he holds a grudge. My children haven’t had a grandparent because of that. Their other grandparents live abroad -- my husband’s an American. Mind you, we see them more often than we see him.”

“Tell me how it all started,” Gail said.

Ilana sighed. “When my third child was born, he was the first grandson in our family. My father thought we’d name the baby after him -- that’s the custom in the Moroccan community. But my husband doesn’t have that custom. He had a brother who was killed in a car accident, so we named the baby after him. My father was furious. He also wasn’t the sandek (the godfather). I don’t even remember why. He left the brit in the middle, yelling and cursing and never came to visit us again.”

Ilana was silent for a minute. “Even when my mother died, we didn’t sit shiva together. It’s very sad. We’re not a big family. My only brother died when he was eight years old from meningitis. My mother, may she rest in peace, used to sneak over here to visit us, but oy vah voy if my father ever found out. So I’ve learned to live without a parent. It hurts, but what can I do.”

"Now, after all these years, I should just forget everything? No! He started this fight, let him say he's sorry."

“Well now he’s ailing and in trouble. He needs you. Maybe you could somehow make up with him.”

Ilana’s mouth turned downward and a harsh look came over her face. “Now that he needs me, I should forget everything? All the insults he hurled at me when I tried to make peace years ago? The way he embarrassed me when we sat shiva alone for my mother and people couldn’t understand why? Now, after all these years, I should just forget everything? No. No! He started this fight, let him say he's sorry.”

“Your father is an old man. It’s now or never.”

But Ilana was just as stubborn as her father and Gail left feeling despondent.

Forgive? Never

The next day Chaim perked up when he saw the social worker come into his room. “Nu?” he asked, seeming to hope that she had something pleasant to tell him.

He really does want to make up with his daughter, Gail thought. He just doesn’t know how to go about it. “I met your daughter," she said. "She really is a lovely person. She's upset to hear you’re in the hospital.”

“So?” said the patient.

“I think she’s waiting for you to call her so that you two of you can get together again.”

That sense of hope slipped away from Chaim's face. “Never. I’ll never make a move to forgive her after what she did to me…”

“What did she do to you?”

Chaim could barely speak. “My only grandson… at the brit, she didn’t give me any of the honors. She didn’t call the baby in my name. She ignored her own father, the man who raised her and did so much for her. Not a single honor. I couldn’t lift my head in the synagogue when people asked me ‘What did they call your grandson?’ The shame! And afterwards, when she called, to explain, to apologize, she only took her husband’s side, not mine. No, if she wants to make up, let her call me.”

“Well if you’re not going to get assistance from your family, we’ll either have to arrange to send you to a nursing home or apply for hired home help.” Chaim refused to consider an institution, so Gail asked him to come to her office and fill out forms for a home worker that afternoon.

Chaim was wheeled into Gail's office which she shared with a colleague, still seething with anger and perhaps disappointment. As they began to fill out a form, a young woman’s voice asked from the door, “Is the social worker for the children’s ward here? I need a parking permit for my son who’s on crutches.”

It was Ilana. She immediately recognized Gail. Then her eyes fell on the frail, elderly man in the wheelchair sitting across the desk from the social worker. He looked so small and ailing. Without thinking, she fell at his side hugging and kissing him, crying, “Oh, Abbale, Abbale, you look so pale and sick. I didn’t know! I didn’t know!”

The old man returned her hugs, “Ilana, my Ilana!” Tears were streaming down his cheeks.

"Miracles sometimes happen," Gail later reported at her next social workers' meeting. Chaim went home with Ilana, gaining three new grandchildren and a new lease on life.

And if you ask the daughter and her elderly father how it came to pass, they’ll look at each other, laugh and say at the same time, “Well you turned to me first, didn’t you?”

Published: November 21, 2009


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Visitor Comments: 30

(29) T. Anijar Andersen, December 4, 2009 4:07 AM

Forgiveness

What a sad story. I had a wonderful father that passed away this February 2009. I come from a Moroccan/Jewish family from Brazil, and we never had this kind of unforgiveness. How can we expect Hashem to forgive us, if we are unwilling to forgive others. What happened to Honor you father and mother? It does not matter who hurts us, we have to forgive, forgiveness is required of all of us. It does not matter who asks for forgiveness first, or who was wrong, what matters is that forgiveness is given. A humble person will take the first step. When we don't forgive others our bodies can become sick from all the hate and hurt it has to carry around.

(28) Judith Avrams, December 2, 2009 11:00 AM

This is a wonderful story and I think the bottom line for every situation like this is that we should just wait. It is very painful when family members do not speak to one another. Sometimes this is the only way to go until the time is right for both parties to come to terms with each other. In this case ,until Hashem's Hashgocha brings them together. Until this happens, do not be angry and daven for peace. Boruch Hashem you were in the right place at the right time to be a part of this wonderful story. Never give up.

(27) Anonymous, November 29, 2009 2:20 AM

The final days are not the time to Reconcile

As a single parent I scarified remarriage, a job I loved, my home and parents for my children. However, one by one my grown children turned bitter. I did even more in order to make restitution for all their minor peeves they continued to claim until now I have a second mortgage and will never be able to retire. I have several chronic illnesses and I am not aging well. I need someone now but my children are not to be found. I have been denied my grandchildren and watching my children become mature adults, haha. When I am too old to care for myself I do not want my children or grandchildren to even visit. It is nearly too late for them to forgive or ask for forgiveness. I don’t think that the father in the article should have allowed any contact. My daughter doesn’t want to be contacted until I’m dead and my sons not even then. I am still grieving the lose, but their hearts are cold

(26) Lin, November 28, 2009 5:02 AM

Forgive or you might regret it for the rest of your life

My sister and my mother had a falling out and my sister decided not to speak to her until it was too late, ten years later. She finally got to ask her forgiveness at her funeral, it was too late. My mother weeped for years about missing my sister and I saw her suffer daily for this void. Now my sister is fighting for life. ironically dying exactly from the same illness my mother had. If you have a family member or anyone that you are waiting to forgive or waiting for them to ask for forgiveness, maybe you should make the first move even if they rebuke you, at least you will know that you tried.

(25) Anonymous, November 27, 2009 1:18 AM

Alan Calm Down

Alan, while obviously the woman made a mistake, we are all human beings and entitled to make them (yes, even big ones somtimes). She clearly regretted it afterwards and tried to rectify the situation but to no avail. Your attitude is the same one that causes these family feuds (and I hope you do not have one in your own family). I am a member of a family where there is unfortunately some tension between 2 people and it has always bothered me very much and I've wished to alleviate the situation. I've always seen it as a mountain too high to climb, but this article has renewed my dream! Thank you!

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