The Nanny Nightmare
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The Nanny Nightmare

The Nanny Nightmare

Three essential lessons.

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When I read about the devastating murder of two young children by their nanny in Manhattan, my heart stopped for a moment. My hands shook as I zipped up my own two-year-old's coat, and I could not stop thinking about the photo of the mother, Marina Krim, in the ambulance, screaming in anguish.

Many people sent bouquets of flowers to the Krim's apartment building on the Upper West Side, and others posted condolences on Marina's blog, Life with the Krim Kids, where she chronicled her children's milestones and lives. Just that morning before the tragedy, Marina had posted:

"One of the best parts of my day is after I drop both girls off at school and have 3 precious hours with little Lito all to myself. Ok, I am near getting cheesy I adore this boy so much."

Her blog posts and photos reveal her love and pride in her three children. The nanny, Yoselyn Oretga, was hired by the Krims two years ago when they first moved to New York so that Marina could spend individual time with each child. At the time of the murder, Marina was with her 3-year-old at a swimming lesson. If you wanted to paint a portrait of an ideal, stay-at-home mother, Marina would be it.

How could they speak that way about a mother whose two children were just murdered?

Which is why I was shocked and sickened to read a number of critical, biting posts about this unfortunate mother. She shouldn't have hired a nanny if she wasn't working. She should have seen the warning signs of her nanny's psychological problems. I wondered if any of these posters were mothers themselves. Otherwise how could they speak that way about a mother whose two children were just murdered?

Mothers often feel guilty no matter what they do, even if no one overtly criticizes them. If they work, they are neglecting their children. If they stay home, they aren't being productive. If they hire help, they are spoiled. If they try to do everything themselves, they are martyrs. When mothers pay too much attention to their children, they are smothering. When they don't pay enough attention, they're too distant.

I'll never forget the fear I felt holding my first baby in my arms; I didn't know that it was possible to love someone that intensely and that unconditionally. And the power of that love scared me because suddenly my heart felt like it was literally on my sleeve. In the days after the Krim tragedy, I prayed that the mother wasn't seeing any of the awful, inappropriate posts about the story. I could just imagine (actually I really can't ) how my own thoughts would go right to blaming myself. Why didn't I notice that the babysitter was grumpy? Why didn't I shlep all the kids to the swimming lesson? Why couldn’t I have gotten home a little faster? Why? Why? Why?

Mothers often think this way about anything that goes wrong for their children. It starts during pregnancy. Maybe if I would have eaten healthier my child wouldn't have any problems. And it continues to kindergarten and beyond. If a child misbehaves in school, a mother wonders if there is something wrong with her parenting. If a teenager has low self-esteem, the mother wonders if she said something wrong, did something wrong, felt something wrong.

I think this self-blame stems directly from the strength of a mother's love, and she knows on some essential level that life doesn't necessarily work that way. We can be the ideal portraits of giving, loving mothers, but that doesn't guarantee that our children are going to thrive. And our desire to protect our offspring doesn't mean that they will never be hurt, no matter how much we want that to be true.

As I was staring at the bouquets of flowers lying by the side of the Krim's apartment building, I felt myself grieving not only for this horrific loss but also for the millions of mothers everywhere who must be thinking: This can happen to me. Who can I trust in this crazy world? How can I leave my children even for a minute? And how do we make sense of this tragedy in our own lives?

I’ve learned three lessons from this nanny nightmare:

  1. Don't judge: This is especially true when it comes to parenting. Don't judge another parent until you are in his or her place. It's hard to be a parent. And even if you are a parent, you don't have the same child or spouse or home. Once on an airplane, a baby was screaming for hours and a woman sitting next to me whispered: "Why can't the mother calm her down? Can't she just give her Tylenol or something?" I was so angry, I couldn't even answer her. Clearly, this woman had never held a screaming child on an airplane or had her toddler throw a tantrum on a supermarket floor. Mothers (and fathers) are doing the best they can.
  2. Appreciate your children: I think one of the biggest gifts that Marina had was not only the time she spent with her children but how much she enjoyed being with them. Sometimes we forget to appreciate those closest to us in the daily grind of living. But a tragedy like this tells us to be grateful for every minute that we have with every child. Our children, like everything we have in this life, are on loan to us. Cherish them. Don't take for granted the little things. Seeing their smiles. Smelling the baby shampoo on their hair. Speaking with them about their days. Holding them.
  3. Do something good: In the aftermath of this kind of tragedy, we often feel helpless. Not only because of the evil and darkness in the world, but also because the evil itself is so unpredictable. But goodness can be unpredictable too. And when more darkness enters the world, we can each help by doing something that brings more light. Give charity. Be a listening ear. Help someone cross the street. Be kind for the sake of being kind. Goodness creates light in dark places and every small sliver of light makes it a little brighter for yourself and everyone around you.

In the face of such an unfathomable tragedy, we can learn compassion, gratitude, kindness. I can't erase the image of Marina Krim screaming at the back of the ambulance. But I can feel her pain. And maybe I can be a better mother and a better person if I hear the message in her grief.

Published: November 4, 2012


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Visitor Comments: 44

(21) L.S., November 9, 2012 1:19 PM

surprised...

I am surprised and shocked by the mean comments here especially since this was an article about having compassion for a family suffering a horrible tragedy. Many mothers, including some very frum women on the upper west side and in Monsey, employ nannies either because they work jobs outside the home, or because they have large families and need an extra set of adult hands around the house. It is impossible to watch your kids 24/7/365 as most kids have play dates, school, activities, etc. Get off your high horses and show some compassion.

(20) Anonymous, November 8, 2012 11:49 PM

Regarding nannies

I have to say that having a nanny is not wise. I know mothers need help, but if it is at all possible to get help from a grandparent or close relative, then by all means, do that instead. No one will love for you child like you or your own parent. Nannies generally are only doing the job to get into the country or before moving on to something else. They are not usually doing the job because they adore children. Remember this.

Anonymous, November 9, 2012 9:10 PM

That's the biggest load of rubbish I've ever heard, if I was allowed to swear on this site I would. Many au pairs love the family they become part of and value their charges highly, as well as the language skills and work experience they pick up. I'm a nanny, I'm a citizen of the country I work in, always have been. I'm a childcare worker/nanny while attending college. I value the children I look after and their opinions and feelings highly. I want to work in Europe to learn to speak German, French and Italian fluently. When I graduate, I would prefer to be a teacher rather than a nanny, but if I have to be a nanny for a few more years, I am content with that.

(19) Bobby5000, November 8, 2012 8:16 PM

Nanny

Read the Nanny Diaries, a great book about how poorly many women treat their nannies. The book is about a nasty, self-centered woman who fired multiple nannies and treats them poorly, but believes her primary problem is a lack of assertiveness. These women treat their nannies like garbage, talk about the nanny in front of her, assume they are interchangeable, and are surprised when the children display problems. Perhaps there will be mommy-cams where the nannies put hidden cameras in the home to show how the mother really acts.

David, November 9, 2012 10:41 PM

Wow

Wow, you are really insensitive. Perhaps the mother is upset because the nanny is not doing her job. Sure there are bound to be a few crazy moms but they are the minority. There are however very many bad nannies.

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