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Ending the Cycle of Abuse
Rebbetzin Feige

Ending the Cycle of Abuse

Should I detach from my father?

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Dear Rebbetzin Twerski,

My father has been absent or emotionally abusive my whole life. Any attempt on my part to connect with my father has failed miserably. Even at this late stage, I have been unable to have an adult-to-adult relationship with him. He is a habitual liar, verbally abusive and appears to delight in disappointing people and creating totally unnecessary chaos all around him. I do not know what is wrong with him. I only know that his lies and rejection of me and my family have caused me years of pain. As much as I love him and wish things were better with us, at age 50 I realize this may never be.

I have made sure our son is not affected by his grandfather’s indifference and unkindness. My question is: Is it okay to stop trying and to detach from him? He is wealthy and does not need anything. I want to do the right thing but in being good to him I hurt myself, because my father treats me as if I wasn’t even his daughter. He only acknowledges his son, totally overlooking my sister and I and our families. This is truly the worst thing for me and all I want to do is what is right.

Rebbetzin Feige Twerski's Answer

My dear reader,

The wise observe that we are prisoners of those whose approval we seek. Sadly, you have tried to get into the good graces of your father for the better part of 50 years, and to no avail. It is finally hitting home. The realization is dawning upon you that this situation is unlikely to change.

Resentment is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die.

Coming to terms with reality is a major step in the direction of healing and healthy living. Until now your expectations have set you up for recurrent disappointment, and worst of all resentment. Resentment, it has been said, is like drinking poison and expecting the other person to die. In fact, as you know, it is the one harboring the resentment that suffers debilitating pain and anguish. You, dear reader, have eaten yourself up alive all these years and now it is time to step back.

For starters, recognize that we should not set out to control or even modify the behavior of others. Jurisdiction, if chosen, extends only to our own responses. Your father’s behavior towards you these many years has proven the verity of this principle; as you stated “all my attempts have failed miserably”.

We often operate with a preconceived script for our lives and our relationships. In this case, you had an expectation of how a father should be. At some point, confronting the truth becomes inevitable. He is who he is and what he is. Certainly there are factors, i.e. childhood experiences, parents, teachers, friends, traumas (Holocaust) etc. that impact who a person becomes. Exploring background information, his past or his formative years may or may not be helpful in generating understanding and perhaps feelings of compassion. Nonetheless, the script as you would have wished it to be is unlikely to ever be realized.

Acceptance would, of course, be the ideal approach. Acknowledging who he is – his limitations and letting go of expectations – would be liberating. It would allow you not to banish him from your life while at the same time it would remove the shackles, the power that he has over you.

This can be done in two ways. A mode borrowed from the martial arts can be effective in the emotional arena as well. Physical fighting stances involve balance, alignment, weight distribution and posture. A psychological fighting stance is all about emotional balance – self-acceptance, abiding by your own moral code, forgiving yourself for failing to reach perfection (a rare achievement) and finally, offering yourself as much compassion as you would give a beloved friend. This works because cruelty, to be effective, has to land on a welcoming spot in the victim’s belief system. In other words, Eleanor Roosevelt’s immortal counsel: “No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.” If we hold onto ourselves, secure in the conviction that we are okay, (and that usually requires a lot of work) it is unlikely that others will seriously rock our boat. It is usually the insecurity we live with that allows those who seek to marginalize us to score points.

Cruelty and abuse should never be tolerated. Your well-being comes first.

Another tactic is to be totally up front and disarming by making statements such as: “Dad, this really hurt me, I need you to stop. I need you to hear me out.” Share your feelings and needs openly. Don’t wait for him to get it on his own. Let him know point blank how distressing the given comment or interaction has been to you.

Consider Helen, whose father smothered her and sought to control her with his incessant demands for attention. Nothing she did ever sufficed. Her family – husband and children – found his unending criticisms and complaints oppressive. Helen finally moved to another city. Phone calls were more manageable because she could either not answer or cut them short. Having gotten some distance and perspective, Helen invited her father to join her in counseling so that they might work towards a more mutually satisfying relationship. Now, some years later, Dad comes to visit but respects Helen’s boundaries – when to come, how long to stay and when to leave, Phone calls are engaged when it is convenient for both of them. On occasion when things get out of hand temporarily, they go back to the therapist for an adjustment. Parenthetically, Helen worked very hard for the self affirmation and confidence that allowed her to hold onto herself and do what she knew was right, and not to allow the fear of rejection and guilt to derail her.

Be assured, dear reader, that in the event that the suggestions articulated above have not and would not work for you, I would recommend that you seek professional help to find peace, to come to terms and assuage the torment of so many years. Bottom line, cruelty and abuse, whether physical and/or emotional isn’t normal and should never be tolerated. Your well-being comes first and if the above approaches do not work, detachment is certainly justified.

I wish you well. Good luck!

Published: November 17, 2012


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Visitor Comments: 32

(21) CH, August 25, 2013 1:31 AM

Disagree

I had an abusive childhood from both parents. I left at age 18 and never looked back. I put myself through school and earned a graduate degree. I've been married 25 years and have two wonderful sons. I owed my parents nothing and it was a relief to have them out of my life. I don't need counseling. I've created a wonderful life without them. I am not bitter or angry, only indifferent.

(20) Anonymous, April 4, 2013 2:16 AM

Fifty-four years is enough.

This article resonated loud and clear with me as I have not had a relationship with my father for nearly thirty years, then in the past three years I worked really hard and I thought he was trying as well, then it all fell apart again this last week and it was just as devastating as it was when the original divorce took place. After thirty years we are expected to choose sides once again, and while my mother was not perfect, she didn't abandon us, disinherit us and move on with her new family. So I will stand by the one who stood by me and the rest is water under the bridge. At fifty-four, I chose to live my life out from under this ugly cloud of bitterness. So be it, Amen Thanks for your timely article.

(19) Miss Debra, March 23, 2013 8:03 PM

Thank you so much for this article. Even though I am not feeling the greatest after recently having a bout with my very abusive father, I could not help but laugh at the picture you chose for this blog. A man who is disgruntled with the world. It felt good to laugh!

I grew up being badly abused by my mother and my father. However, I left a large margin of excuse for my dad because he was in the Navy, and I only saw him a few weeks out of every year. He would play with me and my brother when he was home on leave but he would also be mean and verbally abusive to my brother and beat up my mother who was an awful person herself! Just recently as a mother and grandmother I have tried to reconnect with my dad, hoping he really loved me somewhere deep inside himself. Now that he is almost 80 and alone, I thought I would find some tenderness in him. Instead,I am shocked and hurt by his repeated attacks, anger, false accusations, and downright mean things he says to me. Sadly, I have to accept the fact that he is no better than my mother was (she is still alive but dead to me). They both have treated me hatefully, without any remorse or compassion my whole life. At this point I am wiping the dust off my feet and moving on. I am through turning over rocks hoping to find the gold coin to only find dirt.

(18) Gretchen, December 30, 2012 4:53 AM

I learned my lesson after the first time I let my Dad back in.

Thank you for writing this: it is exactly my situation. My siblings and I have been in no contact with our father for the last 5 years after he hurt one of us badly. We have forgiven our father many times over the years to no avail. He was somewhat decent when we were younger but that changed when he realized that we were becoming independent. There was no way to please him with anything we did. If he could have had his way we all would be unmarried, living at home with him being his servants. My siblings and I have been in private therapy for years and it has helped slowly over time. Honestly, I did not understand that my Dad was a true narcissist until recently as none of my therapists uttered that word. But, it all makes sense now. I am at peace with who he is and I accept him as he is. Sadly, he is no longer welcome in my life nor that of my children ever again. 15 years ago was the first time I initiated no contact with him after Graduate School and it was the best years of my life. I was foolish to allow him back in when I started my family. After my siblings and I struggled to include him in our lives we decided together that we had to let him go. He was hurting us too much...and when young children are involved there is no other way than to say good-bye.

(17) Anonymous, December 12, 2012 6:31 PM

Very Good

I have an abbusive brother who is an extension of our mother and have reached the point where no matter what is said will do no good so have, as per advice from my therapist, separated myself from him with as little communication as possible. Even the short conversations we have, he still does not realize why I don't speak with him. This is the best for me and whether family or not, after being verbally abused for this amount of time, you have to do what is right for you.

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