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Seeing the Trains

Seeing the Trains

Only the Rosh Yeshiva saw the trains. But we saw the Rosh Yeshiva and our lives were changed.

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Rabbi Yehudah HaNasi was one of the greatest sages in the history of the Jewish People. An eminent Torah scholar and powerful leader who amassed tremendous personal wealth, he guided the nation right after the destruction of the Second Temple and made the monumentally historic decision to outline the Oral Law in writing for fear of it being lost. He was known simply as Rebbe, or Rabbeinu Hakodesh (Our Holy Teacher).

But when asked how he achieved his greatness, he said, "I saw the back of Rabbi Meir. How much greater would I have been if I had seen him from the front" (Eruvin 13b).

Rebbe attributed his success to merely having seen first-hand the "back" of Rabbi Meir -- the waning years of the great sage of the previous generation. That exposure, by itself, made an indelible impression upon him. He was a qualitatively different person for having experienced the clarity, depth and power one person can possess.

Rabbi Yehudah HaNasi saw the back of Rabbi Meir. The Rosh Yeshiva saw the trains.

The Rosh Yeshiva would often ask us to imagine what we would be like if we were living in Europe during WWII. Would we be the same people after finding out what was going on inside the death camps? How could our lives not be forever changed by seeing the cattle cars go by, day after day, week after week, month after month, filled with human cargo destined for inhumane treatment.

How could we sleep soundly at night as the trains rumbled by, the silent noise of the horrors to come piercing our senses much louder than the metal tracks drumming a steady beat from the weight of the rolling cars? What we would do if we saw the trains?

Wouldn't we be different people? Wouldn't we be obsessed with finding a solution, going to any lengths to try and save our fellow Jews?

Rav Naoch saw the trains of intermarriage. He saw the trains of apathy -- millions of Jews being lost without one bullet being fired.

The Rosh Yeshiva saw the trains. Rav Noach saw the trains of assimilation; he saw the tens of thousands of Jews throwing away their Jewish lives for the "promise" of a better future -- which guaranteed only that their future generations would no longer be Jewish.

He saw the trains of intermarriage. He saw the trains of apathy -- millions of Jews being lost without one bullet being fired.

It wasn't just theoretical, or just intellectual with the Rosh Yeshiva. It wasn't just a nice thing to do, or "just" a mitzvah. It was in his bones, in ever fiber of his being. He was a different person because of it.

How could he sleep soundly at night while his fellow Jews slept their way into spiritual oblivion? How could he not be obsessed with finding a solution to save the Almighty's children? It wasn't a question for him, it wasn't even a mission. It was his blood, his oxygen. Not because he needed to, or wanted to. Because he had no choice. He was controlled by his clarity. He saw the trains.

We, his students, knew about the trains, intimately. Many of us were pulled from them, brought back to observant Judaism through the Rosh Yeshiva's clarity and care, his insight, intellect and inspiration. We joined the army and took up the task. We had the unique responsibility to share with others the beauty of our heritage that was shared with us. We could speak the same language, relate to the same experiences and guide them through the same teshuva process through which we walked.

We certainly knew about the trains, and some of us even heard the trains. But we didn't see the trains. Only the Rosh Yeshiva saw the trains. But we saw someone who saw the trains. We saw the Rosh Yeshiva and our lives were changed. That's what made us the people we are.

Sure, we learned his Torah, taught his Torah and internalized his message. Most of all, however, we learned the Rosh Yeshiva. His super-sized fist pounding his desk time and again -- emphasizing a point that was so painfully obvious to him, but also painful to him that it wasn't so obvious to us.

During the two years of the rabbinical program, we had regular meetings in his office, discussing, debating and dissecting the grand points and fine points of outreach. The obligation, as he saw it, was nothing less than Kiddush Hashem, sanctifying God's purpose in this world by restoring the Jewish People to our purpose. Anything less than that was a Chillul Hashem, a desecration of God's purpose.

He said a person can't stand against consummate clarity. The more we were real with our mission in this world, the more we were real with ourselves and our greatness, the greater chance we had to affect others. We had to be real. We had to be men.

We wanted to learn, we wanted to teach and we wanted to make a difference. We wanted to be men. But we didn't see the trains. Only the Rosh Yeshiva saw the trains. We had the unbelievable merit to see the Rosh Yeshiva. No more.

Published: February 7, 2009


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Visitor Comments: 7

(7) Anonymous, February 10, 2009 1:39 PM

confusion even after the train seer

After almost 30 years and exposure to the great Rosh Yeshiva am still lacking clarity. People have always joined and left the Jewish fold. God has promised there will always be Jews but how much does it matter how many and who they are? The sages say that the righteous of all nations have a share in the world to come and it seems to me that it is unknown as to who gets what and why. Does a Jew who is uninterested in fulfilling mitzvoth because God commanded it get more or less or a qualitatively diferent reward here and in the world of truth [if any] than a God fearing Gentile? A non believing Jew or Gentile who lives as a humanist and helps humanity for reasons that make sense to him is a tragedy or not? Thank you Rabbi Weinberg for your efforts and I'm not giving up . "Clarity or death."

(6) Tammy Berman, February 9, 2009 7:43 PM

You are truly the Rosh Yeshiva's student

Thank you for your eloquent words. I had never heard about the train. I felt so privileged to have met the Rosh Yeshiva and privileged to have been able to learn from his students. Thank you, Teacher.

(5) Nesanel Yoel Safran, February 9, 2009 2:41 AM

Bs"d I've long been electrified by the Rosh HaYeshiva zt"l's mashal of the the current spiritual climate as a 'holocaust' and one who absorbs this mashal and all it's corrolaries (baalei tshuva being holocaust 'survivors' etc) will not only become activated but will gain a deep understanding of of the world around him. Zecher Tzadik l'brocha.

(4) abraham moskovits, February 8, 2009 7:35 PM

thank you

Thank you for the all the words.

(3) Eddie, February 8, 2009 3:02 PM

Powerful

Thank you for your powerful piece Eli. The Rosh Yeshiva reached so many people. His achievements are too numerous to list and new achievements will be reached in the future because of his teachings.

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