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Saying Goodbye to Ruchama Rivka: A Father's Eulogy

Saying Goodbye to Ruchama Rivka: A Father's Eulogy

After a 12-year bout with leukemia, a teenager's parents say goodbye.


Rabbi Asher Resnick has been teaching and studying with Aish HaTorah for over 20 years. For the past 12 years, he and his family struggled with the leukemia of their daughter, Ruchama Rivka. On June 29, 2002 (19 Tammuz), Ruchama Rivka passed away at the age of 14, leaving many thousands in mourning. The following is the eulogy delivered by her father.

The Sages tell us: "Everything that God created is for the sake of raising awareness of God." That's our purpose in life – to understand how this world reflects the Almighty's greatness and to know what life is really all about.

Ruchama Rivka had a very difficult path in life, but she fulfilled her task. She became part of so many different people's lives – hundreds, maybe thousands – most who never knew her. She elevated and inspired them to greater God-consciousness. The Talmud says that the one who inspires others to do, is even greater than the one who does themselves. Think about how much heartfelt prayer was said, how much charity was given, how many acts of kindness, and how much teshuva she inspired. Ruchama Rivka accomplished in her 14 years more than many people do in a lifetime.

Ruchama Rivka inspired thousands of people to greater God- consciousness.

It was determined for Ruchama Rivka that her way to inspire awareness of God should be accomplished through pain and suffering. And she had a lot of suffering. I told her a number of times that she always needed to remember that there was nothing at all which she herself had done which had caused her suffering (which, after all, had begun when she was just two years old!). She was simply a vehicle to bring God-consciousness into the world.

Ruchama Rivka was a very, very strong fighter. She dealt with years and years of chemotherapy, intensive radiation, and four separate bone marrow transplants. Yet it was still such a shock when she left us; she had merited so many different miracles until that point, that I was sure that she would always get another one. After all, there were so many people who cared about her, so many people who were praying for her.

Ruchama Rivka was gentle and sensitive beyond her years; modest as every Jewish girl is meant to be. She loved doing mitzvot, and she especially loved doing them properly. Once we went to Bnei Brak to ask for a blessing from Rabbi and Rebbetzin Kanievsky. Rebbetzin Kanievsky suggested that she should learn two sections every day on proper speech as well as on trust in God. And she did it – every day, for months and months.

Ruchama Rivka was always very excited when it came time for the mitzvah of counting the Omer. She was always very determined to make it through to the end of the 49 days without forgetting a single day. This year, she was in the hospital almost the entire period of time. She knew she'd have to spend Shavuot in the hospital, and this upset her very much. But when she got to the last day before Shavuot and was able to say the blessing on the final day of the Omer (since she hadn't missed a single day), her face was shining! She was so happy to have been able to do the mitzvah properly.

She was even careful that none of her five machzorim (holiday prayer books), which were all kept in a single case, should ever come to the table. Why? So that there should never be any possibility that chametz would get on her Passover machzor. She always had care, precision, and maturity beyond her years. Her greatest pleasure was doing the right thing.

A week ago, Ruchama Rivka went into intensive care. It was the day of our wedding anniversary. She had a terrible infection in her lungs and throat, making it very difficult for her to speak. She told us how badly she felt that she wasn't able to get us an anniversary present. Then she told us how much she loved us, and gave us each what would be her final kiss goodbye.

She told us how much she loved us, and gave us each what would be a final kiss goodbye.

Ruchama Rivka, just before your bat mitzvah, while you were still recovering from your first bone marrow transplant, we spent some time learning together. We learned Maimonides' 13 Principles of Faith. We discussed how the Almighty has no limit to His power, and that He loves us more than we could ever imagine.

We talked about how God loves you even more than your parents do – and your parents love you very much! We talked about how everything God does is for the good, for the greatest good, whether we understand it or whether we don't understand it. And we talked about the fact that in the end, everything will be clear, revealed as good.

This lesson might have been very difficult for you to have heard and accepted at that time. You had already gone through so much at that point. But you did understand it and you fully accepted it. As the end was approaching this past Friday night, I repeated these messages to you over and over again. I hope very much that you heard me then, and I certainly know that now you can hear me, and I know that now you really understand them.

I want to tell you something special that I learned after your first relapse at age 11. It was a very hard time for all of us. You had begun this whole difficult process at two years old, had gone through all the chemotherapy for over two years along with all the checkups afterwards, and finally gotten to a point where we sincerely hoped that we would never ever have to deal with this leukemia again. And here we were a few months before your bat mitzvah, dealing with it again.

Ruchama Rivka at a wedding a month before she passed away.

I remember being with you in the hospital on Shabbat, and I was struck by one of the Shabbat prayers: "Satisfy us from Your goodness, and make us happy with Your salvation." I was puzzled by these words. If something is from God's own good, then why do we need to ask God to "satisfy" us? Wouldn't that happen automatically? And if what occurs to us is truly God's salvation, then why do we need to ask God to insure that it will "make us happy"? What are we really asking for in these prayers?

The answer which I came to was that these ideas aren't always so obvious or so simple. Even that which is both the ultimate good and salvation from God Himself, can sometimes be extremely hard for us to see and appreciate. This is what we are asking God to help us with.

Then I realized that's probably why these prayers come right after our request to God to "grant us a portion in your Torah". Only once we have that "portion" in Torah can we really feel satisfaction and joy in all that occurs to us in our lives. Ruchama Rivka, I'm sure that this is all very clear right now: We may not always understand how, but absolutely everything is always only for the best.

Your mother was superhuman during this whole period, spending months in the hospital.

It is traditional to ask the deceased for forgiveness at a funeral. Your mother was superhuman during this whole difficult period, the best mother that any child could ever have had. She was always there for you. Every single day. Sometimes for months and months in the hospital. She did everything for you. Emotionally, medically, everything! I also tried very hard. I hope that I did everything I could have done, both materially and spiritually. Please forgive us if there was anything we could have done for you that we didn't.

I have to express gratitude to the many different people who did so much for us. Family, friends and neighbors gave us so much kindness and support that it's hard to imagine that we could have dealt with everything without all of your help. In particular, the volunteers from Zichron Menachem helped us in every way imaginable. There was so much self-sacrifice, tremendous care and concern. It makes you proud to be a member of the Jewish people.

And now, Ruchama Rivka, I want to repeat to you the last blessing that I gave you this past Friday night. I put my hands on your head and said with all my concentration: "God should bless and protect you, God should reveal Himself to you, God should grant you final everlasting peace" (Numbers 6:24-26).

You didn't always have shalom in this world, certainly not like a typical child of age two or 14. Now God should finally grant you the true shalom you always so deeply wanted. You should be an advocate in heaven to help the entire Jewish people with the huge challenges they face now. During your life, you helped so many people to connect more deeply to reality. You should continue to help and to give us the true shalom which comes only through this clarity.

Ruchama Rivka, we love you and we'll miss you. It's so hard to say goodbye. It was, and will always be, a privilege to be your parent. We will never forget you.

Please learn Torah and do mitzvot in the merit of elevating the soul of Ruchama Rivka bas Asher Zevulun. If you would like to make a contribution in Ruchama Rivka’s memory to Zichron Menachem (an incredible organization which helps both kids with cancer as well as their families all throughout Israel) you can click on this link – Zichron Menachem -- [or send a donation to Children's Bridge of Zichron Menachem, 1333 Broadway, Suite 306, NY, NY 10018.

Read of the various efforts made during her lifetime:
Saving Ruchama Rivka
The Ruchama Project

July 13, 2002

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Visitor Comments: 26

(26) Yechezkel, June 20, 2007 12:22 PM


I just happend to "stumble" on this eulogy, I suppose as your approaching Ruchama Rivka's 5th Yahrtzeit. It was incredibly moving and tear-jerking and I am sure she is being a tremendous advocate in heaven helping the entire Jewish people with the huge challenges we faced at the time if her passing and today. May her memory be a blessing.

(25) Aviva Friedman, August 6, 2002 12:00 AM

I was one of the thousands who were touched by Ruchama Rivka. I spent about 2 hours a week with her at Zichron Menachem, and I cannot describe how much I grew from knowing her. I had lost contact with her over the past year or so, but I thought about her constantly. I only wish I had picked up the phone and called. I am so sorry.

(24) BatSheva Haber, July 31, 2002 12:00 AM

I am sooo sorry

Dear Rabbi Resnick and Leah,
I too,was one of the many who davened for your daughter,Ruchama Rivka-A'H. I am wiping my tears away trying to coming up with some comforting words.Your inspiring hesped gave me a glimpse of your special daughter Ruchama Rivka A"H,I feel that I am strengthened---from reading about your amazing trust in Hashem.
Hamakom Yenachem Eschem B'soch Shaar Avlei Tzion V'Yerushalayim.

(23) Anonymous, July 18, 2002 12:00 AM

I'm so sorry

I just wanted to say how sorry i was to hear about Ruchama Rivka. When my Yeshiva daven as a whole, we were requested as part of our tefillot to daven for your daughter. I was upset when I read the eulogy becuase I was iuncluding her in my tefillot and now she's gone. I am so sorry and may you see no more sorrow.

(22) Rochelle Zupnik, July 18, 2002 12:00 AM

Found your article to read on Tisha B'Av and was so moved by a parent's eulogy.

The hardest role in parenting is watching your own child suffer. And then to eulogize ones child - can't think of a more difficult time in a parent's life. But from your eulogy that you are sharing with so many people, you brought suffering to its highest level. I can think of so many people that could benefit from your article. I am glad to learn that your support group was there for you the same as Chai Life Line and Camp Simcha are here in the states. Since my two daughters have been invovled with Chai Life Line, I know the support you can get from the special volunteers. In going forward may you only know of simcha and share simcha with others.

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